I'm full of jealousy, every time I see someone being able to do something that I want to do but I'm bad at I get really jealous and I just can't help it instead of trying to improve at that thing I just spiral on how bad I am at it

It feels like everyone knows what to do and how to do it, they all have an aesthetic and everything is just so perfectly curated, everyone has something to talk about and post but not me, like I have no personality it's just I don't know what to do, should I do something super detailed? or something basic and clean? well it doesn't matter anyway because I don't know how to do it and then when I decide oh well let me try and fix something from my page I can't do it I have no creativity and no motivation (but that's another rant).
I just hate how uncreative and boring I am.